Phil and I have been married for almost 36 years, matter of fact in a few days. But we aren’t good. We haven’t been happy for a while. He and I both have changed. Anyway, about 3 weeks ago he told me that he wasn’t in love with me and didn’t know what he wanted. Oh happy me.
Phil has his work, school, the faternity and his brothers, golf and his buddies......where do I fit in? Apparently I don’t. He likes to drink, more and more. I don’t. He likes to go out and party, I don’t. He likes to do the things he wants to do and I have to make him do some things with me.
I want to feel loved and cherished. I want to come first. Is that too much to ask for?
I just dont know what we are going to do. He wants to be friends, I am not sure I can.
Damn it.
Sunday, February 24, 2019
Friday, January 4, 2019
Day 2
Ugh, nothing like trying to do good and feeling like crap. Just saying.
Samantha made lunch today, steak with butter and a ceaser salad. Very tasty. Then I took her to the store and she got some more stuff. She got me string cheese...man that stuff is good. Lol.
Came home and ended up back in bed by 4:30 and slept all evening. I will be so glad when this bronchitis leaves me.
Nope, haven’t gotten on the scales yet, way too soon. So hang tight with me.
Samantha made lunch today, steak with butter and a ceaser salad. Very tasty. Then I took her to the store and she got some more stuff. She got me string cheese...man that stuff is good. Lol.
Came home and ended up back in bed by 4:30 and slept all evening. I will be so glad when this bronchitis leaves me.
Nope, haven’t gotten on the scales yet, way too soon. So hang tight with me.
Thursday, January 3, 2019
Time to begin a new chapter, don’t you think?
Here it is 2019 and I seem to be stuck in a dead area of my life. Haven’t picked up a paint brush for weeks now. Not even really leaving the house unless I need to. Ugh...the battle is real. Snap out of it...like now.
So, my daughter and I are trying to eat healthy together. She is the one cooking and sharing the food with me. What does that say about my cooking? Lol. Just that I don’t really like to cook. I would rather create.
I weigh more right now than I have in my entire life. That can’t be good for me. Blood pressure is up. Plus all the other bodily levels that aren’t supposed to be up are up. Isn’t that just dandy.
You would think that living life to the fullest would be enough to get me to stay healthy, but it isn’t. I am a weak person when it comes to weight and health. Shame on me.
My husband is giving me a trip of a lifetime in 2020. A river cruise to Scotland, Ireland, Normandy, and to London. I do want to get healthy for it so that I can enjoy it and not have to be on the sidelines.
With that being said, I have like 1 year, 5 months to get myself in shape. Let’s see who wins this battle. The healthy me or the not so healthy me. Lol. We will see.
So, my daughter and I are trying to eat healthy together. She is the one cooking and sharing the food with me. What does that say about my cooking? Lol. Just that I don’t really like to cook. I would rather create.
I weigh more right now than I have in my entire life. That can’t be good for me. Blood pressure is up. Plus all the other bodily levels that aren’t supposed to be up are up. Isn’t that just dandy.
You would think that living life to the fullest would be enough to get me to stay healthy, but it isn’t. I am a weak person when it comes to weight and health. Shame on me.
My husband is giving me a trip of a lifetime in 2020. A river cruise to Scotland, Ireland, Normandy, and to London. I do want to get healthy for it so that I can enjoy it and not have to be on the sidelines.
With that being said, I have like 1 year, 5 months to get myself in shape. Let’s see who wins this battle. The healthy me or the not so healthy me. Lol. We will see.
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